Its a strange way of saying that i know im supposed to love you

Not wonderful, but decent. I had 2 A's and then a B and one C... not good, but i'll bring it up next semester.

3.25 GPA... i shouldn't get another C at ALL to my name in college (i hope...) so i'll bring it up.

( THESE NOT MINE!!! )

So, I lied. I wrote Adam/Tommy porn instead of my Yuletide story. I'm obsessed! Also, I'm giving posting stories in this fandom unlocked in my journal another go, because this is my shiny, new happy place, and I don't want to be all paranoid. Please, please, please DON'T tweet or otherwise deliver my stories to the people I'm writing about. Just the thought of it makes me die a little inside.

Title: Three is (and isn't) a crowd
Fandom: Adam Lambert
Pairing: Adam/Tommy/OFC, Adam/Tommy
Rating: NC-17
Word count: 4,500
Summary: Adam gets Tommy laid. Laws of physics are respected.

Notes: The story is for this prompt at aianonlovefest asking for Tommy/female groupie with a possible threesome with Adam. I found I had a lot to say about that! And I ran out of patience trying to break the story into 4300-character sections. So it's here instead of there.

( She's been flirting with him pretty hard core for the last twenty minutes—being a musician gets Tommy laid, a lot—and right about now he should be inviting her back to his hotel room. But every few seconds, the girl's gaze slides past his shoulder, over to the bar. Tommy doesn't have to turn around to know what she's looking at. Adam's voice drifts over to their table, in the middle of some story about…Tommy doesn't even know what, 'Honey, you have no idea what that man is capable of, and I do mean capable'… )

What Did You Do?
Author: heartsdesire456
Rating: up to NC-17
POV: 3rd
Pairing: Bob/Patrick
Summary:Will we find out what the REAL reason for Fall Out Boy's 'break' is? The REAL reason might be a big surprise... and its all Bob Bryar's mom's fault!
Disclaimer: Patrick isn't pregnant do i really need to disclaim that?!?
Author's Note: FINAL CHAPTER GUYZ!!!!! Comment and enjoy!

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( chapter 23 )

What Did You Do?
Author: heartsdesire456
Rating: up to NC-17
POV: 3rd
Pairing: Bob/Patrick
Summary:Will we find out what the REAL reason for Fall Out Boy's 'break' is? The REAL reason might be a big surprise... and its all Bob Bryar's mom's fault!
Disclaimer: Patrick isn't pregnant do i really need to disclaim that?!?
Author's Note:so, there is one chapter after this!!! Then i'm going to spend my month off from school working on some my passion fics for my_slashion and I WILL FUCKING FINISH THE OLYMPIC!AU... grrr *yes, so intimidating..*

Previous Chapters

( chapter 22 )

Watch it now, cause you know Youtube will take it down soon!!! it did, so maybe this will work? idk *shrug*



OMFG, i kinda expected something huge, BUT i love this! usually i dont like performance+behind the scenes footage= music vid cause it doesnt usually FIT thesong, BUT this is perfect for the song.

"See the world behind my wall" and then its a vid of them being just regular boys hanging out and being friends and it is 100% beautiful. Srrsly. So perfect.

For whatever reason, yesterday I came to the conclusion that there should be a Pretty in Pink-style Merlin AU. Like, okay. They're all in high school! Merlin wears thrift store clothes and lives with his single mother. He works at a new age magic shop with Gaius! His best friends are Gwen and Will (clearly Will is Duckie). And then Lance starts hanging out with Gwen. Lance hangs out with all the poncy rich kids! It doesn't make sense!

And Morgana thinks they're quite interesting, etc, and then Arthur's like, "WHY ARE ALL MY FRIENDS HANGING OUT WITH THE WEIRDOS" except that he finds he quite likes Merlin, even though he doesn't want to. And then he realizes he has a crush on Merlin and TOTALLY FREAKS OUT. And Merlin's all, "What a poncy rich bastard!"

And eventually Merlin shows up at prom with Will and Arthur's like, "NO WAY," and seduces Merlin away from Will, who ends up with like, Gareth, or something, and Morgana laughs to herself happily.



This is the kind of thing I come up with when I don't get a decent night's sleep and then go to work.

What Did You Do?
Author: heartsdesire456
Rating: up to NC-17
POV: 3rd
Pairing: Bob/Patrick
Summary:Will we find out what the REAL reason for Fall Out Boy's 'break' is? The REAL reason might be a big surprise... and its all Bob Bryar's mom's fault!
Disclaimer: Patrick isn't pregnant do i really need to disclaim that?!?
Author's Note:Idk why this wasn't posted already! I'm on the last chapter(s) of this fic already! sorry

Previous Chapters

( chapter 21 )

lmao...know what? notice how in days when rock was good nobody had music vids and the rockstars were ugly, but now they suck and are pretty?

... i'd take ugly and good over shitty and pretty any day!

A meme! From hariet_vane . Explain six icons and then ask other people to explain six of their icons.

( under here )

Also that meme where you go back and take the first sentence of the first post of each month:

( I start a lot of my entries with 'so'. )


Anyway, I'm working on fic now, which is a nice change of pace, and hopefully this next year will be more productive for me! Since I've lost a lot of stuff, if you remember me mentioning something that I never ended up writing, tell me and I'll see if I feel up to recreating it.

I'm sitting here writing and thinking and... tbh i think people think i'm naive sometimes. Because i'm such an idealist and an optimist and like... i have these dreams and ideas that 'never' happen that i'm set on...

And i'm NOT naive, i know life's a bitch. i know nothing's ever perfect. i'm not stupid. I'm actually one of the most world-aware people as young as me that i know. I've seen shit in my 19 years. I've never lost anybody really close, but i've lived through kids dying yearly, i've watched my best friend lose her single-father, i've lived in a 6-person family with only one working parent. I've lost the home i lived in for 18 years, and now i'm losing the one i've lived in since June. I've lived through being dirt fucking poor to the point churches donated FOOD. I've seen kids going from good kids to druggies to teenage parents. I've seen tons of divorces and breakups. Never close to me, but i've seen it.

And on the grande scheme, i've looked at life from the outside since i was probably about 11. I mean, i went through middle and highschool and even now seeing ADULTS doing things i KNEW were stupid. I was twelve when i started noticing how adults fell for shit i, at twelve, saw the stupidity in. I've seen people believe lies that i could figure out as a child.

I'm not naive because i have idealistic views of my future, i'm optimistic. Honestly? I'm kinda cold-hearted in this, but if you want something bad enough, you WILL make it happen unless you like... die or get paralized or something. And if you believe in something, you'll stand by that no matter WHAT. I know what i want, and i know what i believe in and it will take DEATH to stop me from getting where i want to go.

And hell, i've had nothing but people telling me either pointedly or 'sneakily' *notice my sarcasm* that i'm making big mistakes with my dreams and that i should 'settle' but you know what? Thats where society goes wrong! When you 'settle' you're screwing yourself over.

IN ANYTHING! Not just youre dream career, but like...ANYTHING!

( cut since this came out really fucking long and that was my main point, teh whole 'dont settle for shit' rant.. this is just stuff i've already ranted on a thousand times )

She is the mom in the ballet and said to him, while i was there 'you know' *imagine creepy voice and creepier cougar lady* 'my favorite part is the Arabian Dancers. You and your bare chest *insert creepy fingers trailed down said bare chest*... you're so... *eye rape* talented" .....


... ew...

ew ew ew...

He actually is hot, sorta. i was confused greatly by this... cause he's Clay... and Clay isn't hot, lmao. He has Hurley Hips and a Brendon Butt... and then he's got arms cause he's a danseur and his partner is as heavy as him (he's skinny and tall) but like.. when he turns sideways he's like... SO SKINNY HE ALMOST DISAPPEARS (... exageration, but so what? he's skinny)

... but yeah... creepy cougar lady was not cool. I wanted to like... hide him away from her, lol. She was scary as hell. Later he was all 'i might not be taken, but i sure as hell dont want that!' and i just said 'dude, imagine if you MOM had been with us.... wow'


HE DID SO GOOD! I'm so proud! He's so talented and GAH if he can just build some more muscle he'll be such a great dancer!

*takes off proud best friend hat*

Taken from beserkside and ashlein.

Rules:
a) Type your answer to each of the questions below into Flickr Search (http://www.flickr.com/).
b) Using ONLY the first page, pick an image.
c) Copy and paste each of the URLs for the images into Mosaic Maker. (Change rows to 3 and columns to 3.) (http://bighugelabs.com/flickr/mosaic.php)
d) Save the image and post it!

The Questions:
1. What is your first name?
2. What is your favourite food?
3. What is your favourite colour?
4. Favourite band?
5. Dream vacation?
6. Favourite hobby?
7. What you want to be when you grow up?
8. What do you love?
9. One word to describe you.



1. Alex, 2. Flickr Loves Sushi. Mmm., 3. Conjugal Tie, 4. Mermaid Agony, 5. Grand Horizon, 6. .freedom., 7. flickr typewriter typo?!, 8. There is a God Somewhere, 9. but I guess it isn't.


( And now for a brief spam of things I find interesting - Neil Patrick Harris, Kris Allen, some wallpapers, etc. )

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What Did You Do?
Author: heartsdesire456
Rating: up to NC-17
POV: 3rd
Pairing: Bob/Patrick
Summary:Will we find out what the REAL reason for Fall Out Boy's 'break' is? The REAL reason might be a big surprise... and its all Bob Bryar's mom's fault!
Disclaimer: Patrick isn't pregnant do i really need to disclaim that?!?
Author's Note: ... Ask and you shall recieve (lmao, i wonder if anybody will read this, and if the person its aimed at will get it?)

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( chapter 20 )

That is amazing... oh God, almost better than 'Astigmatic' (automatic parody)

... actually i'll include that one too, even though i'm sure i've posted it once arleady:



... Oh i love parodies...

PS, no offence meant,this shit is just funny, i love TH as much as the next person!

HAVE MORE!!! (this is still not but like.. MAYBE half, and this makes 80)

( DO NOT OWN )

The happiest of birthdays to my darling Caro. To celebrate, I got you...an IOU. *g*

One story. Your choice. Or I'll surprise you. Just let me know.

Have a great day! *mwah*

What Did You Do?
Author: heartsdesire456
Rating: up to NC-17
POV: 3rd
Pairing: Bob/Patrick
Summary:Will we find out what the REAL reason for Fall Out Boy's 'break' is? The REAL reason might be a big surprise... and its all Bob Bryar's mom's fault!
Disclaimer: Patrick isn't pregnant do i really need to disclaim that?!?
Author's Note: COMMENT IF YOU ENJOY!!! (and yes, i'm totally tossing in some extra drama just because this fic is getting a little boring, imo)

Previous Chapters

( chapter 19 )